This process of exploring and coming out as non-binary, or gender queer as I prefer to coin myself, was not linear. It was years of therapy, processing, and learning to love who I am. One of the most difficult parts for me was looking in mirrors. It was hard to see myself and I was having a lot of depersonalization and dissociation related experiences. However, with all of that, I could always see my eyes. I was always able to focus on my eyes.